i have been there before

I'VE BEEN THERE BEFORE

A barren voice in a lonely body
A broken heart in a heavy chest
A soul starved of hope
Yes, I've been there before
When joy runs out of ones life
And invites its forbidden twin
When sorrows become ones only companion
When friendship smells like decaying body
When the world becomes the shells of groundnut
And all faces become one before the eyes
When the voice of all become the voice of one
When beyond today,
There is nothing
And when memories become hot iron bars in the ears
When tears are as impossible as a male pregnancy
Not because the sun had drained them
But because those tears themselves fear your pain
Yes, I've been there before
When the cold night grows into an oven
Not because the moon had become the sun
But because your thoughts radiate heat
I've been there before
When the world looks like the falling bridge in 'final destination'
And you have a decision to make
 Not a decision you can make
But a decision you have to make
The decision to end it all!


Yes, I've been there before
I wasn't so smart to kill that moment
 But I was so considerate to cast a spell on my thoughts
 I allowed the past years to race through my mind in seconds
Then joy approached me one step at a time
They weren't all happy years
But something tickled me
What if I end it now?
What if there is no life after this?
How would my parents feel?
What would be the mood of my foes?
What of my role in life?
 Is this the only option?
Am I the first person in this condition?
 And these words were the last words of the hopeless me
Then a hopeful me was born
And No it was go suicide!
I've been there before! ??

BY: GABLA GODWIN
GGABLA